Not what I expected

Well my weigh in this week was surprising.  I gained 0.2lbs.  I did everything perfect, didn't go over my points, but still I gained.  It wasn't a huge gain but still upsetting.  I am not going to let it get me down though.  I have lost 27 lbs in 17 weeks and that is huge progress.  I need to lose 26.8 more lbs.  Halfway there.  I really hope that I lose next week.

In other news I've started wearing a belly band to try and close the diastasis in my stomach.  I can't remember if I've written about it before.  Basically after pregnancy the stomach muscles sometimes don't go back together so you constantly look 5 months pregnant.  My stomach and internal organs are sticking out through the gap.  Gross!  So I've been wearing the band and trying to do the exercises as much as possible.  I'll get my husband to take a picture of me wearing it this weekend so you can see how it looks.  The thing that sucks about it...well one of the things...is that I still have that huge overhang of fat and skin over the c-section scar.  Basically nothing short of surgery will get rid of that.  Anyways the belly band smushes that all down and makes it look even bigger and frankly, quite disgusting.  I'll be wearing a lot of big sweaters over the next few months!

And speaking of that overhang of fat and skin, it has really been getting me down lately.  I know that even if...I mean when...I lose all the weight it will still be there.  I can't get rid of it.  I have been thinking of whether or not I would even consider getting a tummy tuck after I lose all the weight.  I always thought of tummy tucks as the lazy way out.  You don't want to try to eat healthy and exercise so you just get surgery.  But in my case it really isn't like that.  I am working my butt off exercising and dieting and by the time I am done the weight loss part of my journey I will have lost 55 lbs.  But even with all that weight loss I will be left with this area that still looks horrible.  It is really expensive - probably about $9000.  And there are risks - what if something went wrong?  I guess I wil have to wait until I have lost all the weight and see how it all looks.